I just feel empty, like I have nothing left of me. I work my ass off because my dad doesn’t help me anymore, i pay for everything on my own. I’m trying to save up for a car I have 2 jobs trying to get to college next year I’m literally falling apart. I can’t even think I actually have friends anymore cause not one of them can take just one night away from their boyfriends to talk with me, even when I basically beg. I’m 17 I shouldn’t be dealing with bullshit like this. This is my last summer vacation before I go to college and I don’t even have time to do anything for myself. My boyfriend doesn’t care anymore our year is on Sunday and I feel like he’s completely abandoned me. He goes out, he does things for himself but never bothers to ask me if I’m okay. I feel like I’m completely alone and it’s getting really bad again. It takes everything I have to not start cutting again, I don’t do it for him. He hates it, he knows my past with it and it would kill him if I started again. That’s the only thing stopping me. But I want to, so badly. I thought I got over my depression, but then again I guess it never really goes away it just disappears for a little. I’m alone, I really don’t have anyone, no one really cares anymore. I don’t know what to do…because its getting that bad again.